Anybody Successful?

Look around me, so far I only know two people in my life that is successful in making a living.

People I consider successful in getting what they want:

Joann, my CBW senior. My third uncle from mother side, my eldest cousin brother from mother side, and then who else?? I keep looking alertly for people who can change their life the way they want, and I am keeping an eye on it.

Being Moody

Perhaps it is my hunger in the stomach that is affecting my mood. Messaged Chea Wen and went out eat with him. Grateful to have him to go supper.

How I wish I have a laptop, that I can bring everything out of here to do. There are NO big and strong table for me to laid open all the materials I need to do report. Tables in my room is so small. I have no idea how to make full use of the tables I have here.

So, I thought of getting a Japanese table so that I can move my monitor down and keyboard to do my report where I can spread wide all the materials I need on the floor. Sigh. Sometimes when I think about life at Melaka, I start to feel depressed.

I think about the things I frustratingly need and just couldn't do anything to get them. Money limits my life, Melaka limits my life. This two is enough to make my life small.

Everywhere I go in Melaka, I feel unhappy. The people here are so boring, their clothing is lame, not to compare with the tourist here. I mean the local people here. The food here is average. But it is hard to get great appetite for food here. Everything I eat here is the same over and over again.

People said, it is good to be student. Yes it is, but not student in Melaka.

Friday of First Week

Time flies so fast, because I had been mentally not attached with the time. Yesterday was equally good and bad. So it neutralized.

Today I watched London Dreams and continue reading The Monk who Sold His Ferrari. Both are very inspiring and I learn a pool of lessons. The Monk who Sold his Ferrari is a damn fantastic book that it touches my heart so deep inside and made me feel as if the spirit of the book enters my soul and dance inside me.

Didn't sleep at all last night, so I try hard to sleep since 7 in the morning buy failed to sleep until 4pm and accidentally missed my class at 5.30pm because I was so tired the time I woke up and worried I will fall sick if I wake up. An hour with Alan Tan is missed.

Days Left

Days left in MMU is getting lesser and lesser day by day. I'm going to blog about my daily life in my final trimester in the final year.

Being an Epsilon year student absolutely is better than being a Beta year student.

I slept early last night, around 10pm, and to my amusement, I woke up early at 5.30am. Wasting my time clicking here and there on FB for about an hour, I start studying energy system for my FYP. After an hour, I fill my stomach with oat bun filled with pork floss.

Sitting down in front of PC, I thought about life at smaller scale. I thought about happy relationship, the kind of relationship u attached to that will make u feel good each time thinking about the person. It is hard to achieve. And besides, I thought about building a company based on solar system. In my dreams, I vividly feel TNB loses its average profit in the history of electricity business within Malaysia, and that makes me the richest woman in the history.

Fact is, human has better inspiration and dreaming capability in the early morning. Or late at night, when the air is calm and the mind can imagine at greater degree.

Went to class at 10am, Sim came to fetch me to class. I loves to have someone to pick me up for class, and I have it now. Grateful for it. Mr. Pau Kiu Nai was the lecturer of the class. He asked us question which I already know what his answer would be, because I had a short conversation with him during the FYP presentations.

He is telling that, engineer maximum salary wont be as high as businessman, or those in management line. Since all of u are an engineering student, it is better to venture into some kind of management industry so that with both skills on hand you can become engineer's manager and your income comes in different scale compare to that of normal engineer. Engineer forever wont be able to get into manager post.

And he asked our view, on what brings u into engineering course. A student bravely answer his question in clear and loud voice. He said thermodynamics turns him down because fact is this subject is extremely difficult from what I heard from many mechanical students.

Yah and Sim told me he has a religion. He pray upon Steve Jobs. And those who don't is a total failure to him. Guess his believe is too strong. He said that iPhone is the temple, it is within reach in the pocket of his pants. Godly Steve Jobs is always with him. The way he pray to his God is by rubbing the iPhone with his hands 10 times daily. The assembly of God is through iPhone. Sounds like Steve Jobs is the next religion in the information technology era.

We headed to PS for our lunch, had a bad "Nasi Lemak" that caused me damn RM2 where the stall next to it selling at RM1.50. Bought a cup of NesLo, a combination of Nescafe and Milo.

Then Sim drop me back at home and I am here writing this post. Hope you enjoyed my words from my mind.

New Year Resolution 2010

As age increased, in no time I realise my skin is showing my age. No longer has the young look like how I used to have. And so, I got to start using toner and moisturiser strictly twice a day!! There goes the first resolution.

Secondly, to keep my scalp free from dandruff and hair fall. Can't afford to see my hair getting lesser due to hair fall.

Brush my teeth 3 times a day! Wake up, after lunch and before bed time. I had been neglecting this too much!!!!

52kg before 2010 ends!

No buffet on my own.

Stay healthy, no iced water and as little ice cream as possible, to avoid phlegm that makes me feel difficult to breathe.

Jogging once every two days, to prepare fitness for Melbourne trip. And continues to evening walk or evening cycling after graduate.

Improve my cooking skill to grade 2....

No fighting with anyone.... I want to enjoy a peaceful year.....

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

Glad that 2009 is ending soon. HOORay!! Know why I am feeling all excited of 2010? Because I can leave MMU very soon and 2010 marks the end of my university life. Can't wait for working life, it's gonna be fun and excited!!!!

Yesterday talked with Chor Win, my soon brother in law. And he told my sister that in order for someone to excel, he needs to enter the right field and be leader of that field. Gosh..... He is so right. I need to be leader of some field I am good at. hmmm

Each New Day Brings Fresh Hope

This is the quote painted on the wall of my class room in Form 5. When I go to class with the blur and sleepy face, I look up at the wall and it's true that Each New Day Brings Fresh Hope. It feels like it's a brand new day, yesterday or what ever in the past doesn't matter, because today is a new day and fresh hope can be instilled.

I wake up each day feeling depressed, addicted to the game of my life Rangnarok Online game. Or I get addicted to MSN chatting or hours and hours of phone call in the wee hour with guy.

That's Form 5 life and it really shocks me that my life could get out of range. I remember those time where my breathing was hard, I sleep more than usual. Almost everyday I took afternoon nap, with my school uniform on, under running fan.

There's this SPM exam coming, and I am not preparing much, I was lazying and too afraid to face it. Was playing game whenever chance hits, because gaming brings all the trouble away. When I was gaming, I can't think of anything in life but only keep concentrating on my character inside there. I made lots of friends inside, I still remember a girl by the name ~Kui~ who is a priest, will always get me into her party. She was two years older than me, and lived in KL. Now we had lost contact and I wonder where is she now. I would ask her to join my new private RO server.

The feelings of finishing Biology paper was great. Right after the paper, I walk out to the corridor, look up into the sky and whisper to myself that I would never ever have to study Biology ever again in my entire life. Fact is, I never really finish studying the whole syllabus of this subject. I only did my revision for Form 4, and only few chapters for Form 5. My ambition was to become engineer that time, and so Biology has got nothing to do with it.

The feeling of getting SPM over was great. I would never want to go back to that again.

Because of what I had go through, I never ever again can strive in my exams any more. The feelings of expectation in result will make my breathing difficult, and my body numb. I don't want that.