End of Second Week at Singapore

We drove to JB's customer's place yesterday. He said he will drop me home. I was like fine.......... The trip to JB was with another sales man. I find myself enjoying the entire car ride. The jams on the road don't make me feel pissed at all, instead welcoming all the jams on the road. hahaha.. How bad I am. In the car ride, I have him accompanying me to kill time on Friday night.

All my friends here are not inviting me to anywhere. That's how unlucky or bad it was. Friday night is important for me to go out and spend some happy laughing night to welcome weekend~

It feels good to be having this chance to escape from home temporarily. I feel peaceful. But sometimes, too peaceful and too quite and the lonesome feeling kick in.

It was really a long journey to send me home, because he was using second link. The way to second link is not near either! Ahh what ever. We are traveling from first link, to second link, then from second link at Singapore to my house passing Orchard road. But I would like conclude that, the journey to my home was nice indeed. We pass through Orchard road, a busy street full of tourist and happy faces.

Then I saw this sign board showing the way to Acid bar, and I was saying oh Acid bar is here I came with friend before. And he immediately trying to twist his steering asking oh u wanna go down here I can drop u here. This words immediately pop out in my mind "mother fucker"!!

When we are at JB, this sales man had directed him wrongly to the hotel he wants to go. This sale man feel sorry for my teacher, cz we are stuck at traffic jam and when the sales man saw the restaurant he needs to go, he immediately say I will just get down from here, the restaurant is just right there I can walk over. My teacher made no indication to send him right in front of the restaurant. I was so pissed with his manner. How could he just put someone by the road side!

Singapore Training

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This is the second week I am here. For official training of my new job as a Consultant Engineer.

Now that I know clearly about my job scope, responsibility, career opportunity and most importantly my mentor.

He has been very kind and committed in educating me lots of things. Almost teaching and giving me everything that a new CE would have to know.

The first 4days of trainings went pretty smooth. Until the 4th day, he invited me to dinner with his wife and sons. From there on everything changes. It was a stressful night I would say. I went home trying to figure out why was that happening in front of me. Why was I feeling so much much awkwardness.

Coincidently, my best friend's house is just few doors away from his home. And that make the stressful drop some.

So on Friday night, I consult my friend who is a guy. And he helped me to interpret the whole thing and his opinion is that his wife might find out that he is interested in me, and that she finds a heavy need to meet me face to face with the hope that this girl his husband is working closely with will not destroy their happy family.

Complication complication. The worst thing of all, I faced sleepless night for two nights, mind full of worries and nonsense. Was imagining myself being a "gundik"!! I was like WTF. How could I become one.

Once, he told me that he was a very conventional, or old minded type of guy. But then, according to Chinese tradition, a man can have many wives as he wishes because his wife will have no say and that his decision is what the family has to obey. His decision on anything is final. It was a very "da nan ren style".

Through the period of us learning things together, he asked me lots of questions of my opinion on him. I always find myself stumbling in finding words for his answer.

So I had sleepless night on Sunday, welcoming Monday with lots of emotions, and mood twisting pushing me to go crazy for nothing. That sounded horrible enough. Something even worst happen then, he brings me to a meeting room for some private talk. He starts bringing the conversation in a long and windy manner. Keywords is that, he wants to educated me, instill in me the importance of Japanese working ethics and culture I should cultivate.

My face dropped immediately when he finish saying, this are the Japanese spirit that I have to bring along the way, and past it down to my future new staff someday. I was so anti-Japanese company already and I will have to implant this spirit in me, contradicts boldly.

After that talking session with me, the whole working hour duration he was not even talking to me, not even looking at me, not even bothered to find me existing. Until the work time is over, we start talking and he start teaching me AP100 Punching machine. We ended quite late. Almost reaching 9pm only I walk out. We both are so exhausted.

This morning, he bring me to the meeting room to talk again. This time, he was saying he had come to understand how "ang moh" oriented I am from his finding and realisation. His brain never stops thinking about work, about me even when he go back home. This is what I find. He said he will have to let me understand how importance it is for him to inject this Japanese blood to me, more important than all the all the software skills he is going to pass down to me. I reassure him with, I had talk about this over with my bf on the phone. And yeah, he pretty believes in my bf opinion, how did your bf advise you on this matter. My bf was sharing with me, whenever he go facebook or chatting, he would make sure that his junior won't see it as he didn't want t create a very bad example.

Now, he was a man who went through a life a man should. He was just a man who faces life difficulty and had struggle through before. Note that, he understands what it is to be a man finding career to define himself, he understands what are the values a girl should be having in supporting a man who are going through the perks and peaks of reality, he understands what it is to be a man who behaves in a nerdy and geeky manner, he knows best what are the values a good wife should have in order to carry the pride of a man. Pride the life of a man.

In fact, he actually had given me a very good answer to my searching in the problems I encounter with my bf.

Yah one important thing I almost forgotten to drop here.

He was talking about man, the fact of what man are. The kind of temptations that men must admit it took much from them to resist. Then he was telling stories of his trips to Myanmar with two other colleagues. And they went massaging. His colleagues was attracted to the girls, know their names and go back looking for the girl the following day. So, he was trying to hint me that men alway have desire!!!! I don't know what are this trying to indicate. I will think about.

It's getting really late here and I will have to go back. Think about it.

New Year Resolution 2011

Back from Cameron Highland

With lots of inspiration

Of what I want to

It goes:

1. Speak less

2. Smile more

3. Save more

4. Read more

5. Eat less

6. Happy more

7. Confident more

8. Laugh moderately

9. Think less

10. Love more

Christmas Eve

It is Christmas and I feel like going to beach. Spend some sweet time there. It's beautiful in my imagination, but I just wonder if it would be beautiful in reality.

With beer, mat, snacks, ice cream, cake, just sitting or laying under the sky with shining stars on the eve of Christmas, would it be significant allowing dense and lively emotions. With some space for romance. Oh my, feels like escaping to somewhere and enjoy sunset right away. Oh my, life is about making money and enjoy all these feelings!!

Sigh. Sometimes things happen again. I guess I had not guard thing from happening. Carelessly let it flow again. Sometimes, being silent and quiet is just perfect. After many years of being noisy, isn't it time for me to be quiet?? Okei. 2011 is coming real soon. So I gotta review my 2010 resolution and see from there if I had achieve them all.

Every passing day, I feel different about myself. Feels like I am growing older and not wiser at the moment. I gotta start preparing my room into a proper piece of heaven, and start laying out what are the things I would definitely need to do. I am not strong in my direction yet. This is not going to stay on forever.

I have to start something seriously. These are the things I always had on my mind when I was in uni. These are the things I told myself many times that I would start building. And I need to before I lost too much of time!!!!!!

crazy working day

It's crazy because I sleep at 2.30am, after long hours of gaming!!! I love the game so much, because it makes my mind to think nothing but only the game. Loving it to maximum.

I was almost winning. Getting tired. Defeat the blue team, and then yellow team was rather weak as well. So I just simply arrange my team without reassurance with the thought I would definitely win with my stronger units all over. But I was wrong. Without proper strategy, I am losing my rockets and battleship one by one. Slowly my team become weaker.

Almost certain, that things you appreciate most can be lost easily. Instead, things you least appreciate will more likely stay with you. I had experience this many times.

Friends BBQ birthday party

Laughed much. The BBQ was simply good. Was mixing with this group of born rich guy. Family business has made them enjoying life with loads of money. Too pampered, too secured with money.

Know what, this group of people smoke heavily, drink heavily, and will get gf to have fun with or to cure their loneliness. I felt I am way way different from them. But it was fun to mix with, especially their words can be powerful that you will laughed so happily! Or maybe it's from the liquor?!

I am now, one phone call and will make it to meet you. So flexible. It was nice, nobody to stop me from going out as much as I want. Even if Sim is around, he wouldn't stop me as well. I don't know if we will slowly grow apart, or the distance gonna make our love fonder. I don't know. We don't hang hours on the phone, I sometimes don't know what we are. Sounds complicated right. I really don't know. Life is like a maze. Every steps will lead to somewhere. In the end, you gotta know your goal, want, and need right.

First Day

What I am going to face in this career path is still uncertain and all. But I get a few things from here, which sound promising. Salary wise, satisfied. Job scope wise, satisfied. Environment wise, acceptable.

Thinking back, if I should scold myself stupid or what. The offer I had got from Rotina group is actually much appealing than what I am having here right now. The one the old man offered me pays better than here in the long run. One main point I didn't accept it because of its based at KL. Or I would be so excited on preparing myself to Canada for 3weeks. Ou. How could I miss out on that. Sigh. It sounded like he would offer me a manager position if I do it nicely for him. A very profitable company with a handful of opportunities to rise. I rejected it, cause it was at KL. Simple and simple. I just want Penang or Singapore. Sigh...... If only I would be able to learn to accept KL life, I would be able to travel few times per month to Indonesia, Singapore, Korea and many more because he wants to travel less and let us younger generation to take care of his business with his supervision.

There's no use regretting, but still I want to feel it. This make me humour. Wished I would be send somewhere out of SEA for training. How wonderful could this be... The exotic feeling I can imagine.