Bored of Relationship

I've never felt this bored of relationship.
Being controlled.
Being jeopardized.
Is not the kind of thing for me.

I'll see if things will change and grow.
If it's not, then I'll definitely leave.
I'm very sure of this decision.
I will not turn back.
Strictly decisive.

I forgotten what does I felt before
When loving someone so much
And the other person do not
Why staying together anymore

I just felt a strong strong urge to leave
No matter what happen
2012 in Penang
Then I'm off somewhere in the Earth

People said,
Listen to your heart
And I know it much
My heart did not want to continue this boring relationship
Anymore

I want to move on into something fun, exciting, happy, lively
Not something like this at all
I cannot live like this
This is not me

If I'm so so sure, perhaps I can call it off in a week or two...
Another break up
Ah just deal with it
I can start all over again

New romance again
New chapter again

I had enough of him,
I'm seriously bored
I'm seriously tired
Having to please him over and over again

I just want to be myself
Having all the fun I always know I'll enjoy
This is just not for me.
ADIOS

Still down the Hill

Everything is fucked up.
Nothing seems fine.

Let it flow let it flow.
Till my luck gets better.

Little Complication

Well well, relationship are headache. I just want to learn to don't care so much. Just go out. Just hang out. Just hug. Just kiss. Don't get deeper. Simple. Less complication. Don't invest too much emotion.

I don't know what kind of life I want to settle my life with. But let's just see how it goes from here. Well we like it here. Easy life. Not so much excitement anymore.

Wonder if I should get out of Malaysia for a living in few years time? 25 is not young anymore. It's the borderline to settle down my life with something.

I am happy to learn in this corporate world. Now I had see how realistic materialistic it has become.

I guess, I gave up ____ already. There's no point going into anymore. The world is so huge. There will be something good for me, I believe. Having faith in life is important. It will attracts what you're faithful in.

Peace. Serenity.

Gigantic lesson

Difficult emotion
Guilty within
Weighty within
Loathed this to happen

Sensed everything was wrong
Been acting differently
Not as friendly as before
Not as cheerful as before

Relationship with people dropped
What has gone wrong
Not interested in good terms
Lost attraction on connection

Learned heavy lesson

1. Stop doing any work hastily
2. Guard invitations, orders and instructions heavily
3. Punctual, earlier and ready to wait
4. Think twice at least, or many times, or ask one, or a few before action
5. Humble in your speech and act
6. Take advise with open heart and check when words of wrongdoing came
7. Learn quicker, listen attentively, work harder but smartest.
8. Make all essential preparations to enter a new day
9. Check thoroughly, careful of thorns, confirm with documents- black and white- chop and sign!
10.Calm, logical, rational, professional, intuition to decision, not feeling, emotion, mood, repulsive.

Found Direction

Glad to have found

Where What Want

Money is power

Money is freedom

Disbelieve in saving

Believe in managing

Believe in expanding

Believe in increasing

Believe in business

My goal is medium

Start off with small

My dream is beautiful home

With all classy design, furniture

A house with garden

Always inspired by classy feeling

Classy music is sweet

Someone to share this life

Work hand in hand

Step by step to beautiful dream

Hyundai Tuscon

Semi-D with garden

Good enough in my perfect living

BOYS

Had an interesting and fun conversation with my colleague today.

I was about to go back.

Making U-turn.

And there, he was standing alone showing sign he's free and relaxed.

I was tired. Exhausted after long day in customer's factory.

I stop and pull down windscreen of my car.

Both of us showing sign, we can chat.

We started talking about our company's management, leadership, shitty people inside and all.

And then we go deep into the importance of psychology.

Till then, we are talking about boys girls courtship.

By the time I am driving back, my mind is full of useful information that I told myself it would help me to grow a great relationship someday.

From what I've read from a book titled "Act like a lady, think like a man", the main needs of a man is support, love, and cookies. And when a man really loves a woman, they will profess, provide and protect.

Today, my finding from the conversation is man needs freedom and a great amount of dignity. How true is this? I am still thinking.

To make a man buying things you want most, giving you tonnes of surprises, doing crazy things just for you, you'll need to know how to pull and push his heart. A man can love deeply, perfectly, but he will not have the drive to do anything to spice the relationship. On the other side, the woman is demanding wanting many things from the man. Having a man who loves her so much isn't enough. Woman wants to feel emotionally connected, emotionally triggered.

What a woman should do, is to rub her man's heart. The more rubbing the stiffer it became. LOL. You've got the idea. So...... good luck with that.

I will experiment and see how good I can go.

Yes, when a man is courting a woman. If the woman likes the man and feels he is good enough, she should show sign that she's fine with him. If she show sign she's off, the man will back off as well. So, at the courting stage the woman should show on and off sign of wanting this man even though she desperately want this man. This is to make things more difficult for the man for man loves challenges. Easy come easy go. Difficult to come, difficult to go. AHA.

Lastly, do not be afraid to reject sweetly. Do not be afraid to push away. But be smart not to push away too hard, careful not to make this man fall down and not come back anymore.

The more you are able to push away, and the more he is able to stand up and come back. You've got in control on this GAME.

Defeat or Victory. Yours to decide.

Tired

Oosh I'm so tired.

3 nights in a row come back home late.

Feels immune at first.

But this tiredness is hitting me hard.

Everything's so messy.

It's time to change.

To get tidy.

To get organized.

To get my things to work smoothly.

To start self-learning.

To start motivated.

To start inspired.

I got to get things moving.

Time and tides wait for no man.