Sometimes I wonder, how much a person's life can change with will, enthusiasm, and very strong determination. How far can a person bring his life to change with such high devotion for what he wants in life when money, family background don't allow so?
If what he wants in life is too far away from what he have, what he is capable, then can he still achieve what he wanted so much in life??
Or should we hold back to reality, limiting our dreams, limiting our imagination, limiting our ambition in life by weighing realistically of what we are capable in the most factual way?
How could we change our life, change our destiny, and change our attitude that has been inside us for 2decades?
Even if I realised all this, what can I do to save myself from the fact of how the flow of society is forcing me hard from my back?
How can I change my destiny? This is the largest fear in my life that I had stop thinking about it for quite sometime.
I know I want this dream very badly, that I will do whatever it takes to achieve it. And then I think about the fact of settling down and building my own family. And then I think about the fact of leaving everything I'm comfortable with for something I want. And then I think about how much money I need to give a kick to that dream.
It is all only dream, no?
This is my pay cheque for ITP, RM600 is consider satisfying for a student, where there's no task no responsibility, played Restaurant City almost every hour. Sound sad, torturous mentally, but still have to go through it with positive attitude. It is a do nothing job.
