Thursday, May 31, 2012

Hang On or Move On?

Maybe I am a good writer.
Maybe I am a good singer.
Maybe I am a good speaker.
Maybe I am a good entertainer.
Maybe I am a good motivater.
Maybe I am a good wife.
Maybe I am a good mother.
Maybe I am a good reader.
Maybe I am a good salesman.
Maybe I am a good mentor.
Maybe I am a good leader.

So, shall I continue here or elsewhere?
Where should my journey continue?
What should I be doing next?

Ask myself within.
What is my direction.
What is my speed.
What is my ambition.

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Broken

Feels so broken inside.
Oh I miss you so much.
And also I need to let go.
Can't we just make sweet love.
And forget about the world.
Can't we just be greedy with sweet love.
Forget about every other things.

I never regret the time we had together.
I just regret I pushed you away.

Time spent with you felt like total blessing from above.
The chemistry we shared are nevertheless the greatest love of all

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Beating Dangerously


Every message I sent for you means evil
Every thought I have about you means evil
Every feels I have for you means evil
Every dream I have on us means evil

I cannot bear to see myself to be in love this man. Evil is the way that causing every downfall of a person's luck. I'm here halfway climbing up. The climb is not long enough for me to feel satisfy enough and I just don't wanna drop like that just to re-climb. As much as I want to make sure that my pathway is clear, I will have to guard against my sin.

No matter how beautiful the love we can share, it is better leave it untouched!! For once any party stepped into this dangerous love, it only means hurting everyone altogether.

Everyday, I told myself pull out from this game. You're not strong enough to play. Just flag the white card as means of surrender.

My sense:
Told me that this is not as simple as I think. This has to take a lot of self control to survive.

Inside of me:
I'm scared. I'm damn fucking scared that I'll fall into this pool of life disaster again. I damn need to avoid it before any big problem coming up to me. I'm so worried, so worried, that all the things that I'm worrying will happen.

Action needed:
Chop off everything. Stop right here. No more text. No more voice. No more pictures. Deletes everything. If you can do all the deletion, you survive the first step of maintaining my climb up to the top.