Congratulations

I feel proud with what he had achieved so far. Proudly, this had always been want I wanted to create in his life. Now he had more than he expected in his career life and don't want me in his life anymore, and that marks the end of our 4years relationship. We are now officially off.

He called and ask how should he share his love and happiness with me when we are so far apart in distance. Well, I told him perhaps this is our fate and destiny. Find happiness at your own.

Feeling proud and great for helping this man who is in depression, very pessimistic, and heavily negative in his thinking. And now, I had successfully transform him into someone optimistic, strongly believe in his own dream, and way much positive thinking than he is before. Though this relationship has to stop right here, I feel all this years is not a waste but something that happened, something very meaningful in my life for I had done something great in his life.

I feel really good looking back at the change he had. From someone in horribly deep shit, emotionally critical into someone respected with loads of money for him. He work really hard, and with little smart. Now, I'm directing and inspiring him to work smart and leave work hard slowly. The result will be tremendously amazing.

Again, I feel good for the achievement he'd got. For this is what I intend to create, and now I see the result. Hoooooooorayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Blue Day

Very very very very very very sad!!!!!!!!!
Pendrive lost! I like this pendrive so much because it was provided by the company and now it is lost!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wuuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuuuuuwwuuuuuwuwuwuwuwu.........

Am I Scary?

I'm down down down down.

I think my manager can be shocked and afraid of me when I suddenly doing things that didn't have sign on my face.

Keep telling myself, reduce outing, reduce dinner outside, but I still failed to reject the dinner invited to celebrate H's birthday.

I needed! not want! Yes I needed more time at home clearing and cleaning what should.

I don't know where I am heading in my life. I take advise from my manager seriously. Build strong foundation, don't involve in politics. Talking about my manager... A lot said that he is like my father. In terms of his age and my age, he appears like my father. We speak hokkien and sense some gap due to the age gap.

Sometimes, I do disagree with what he said but yet I have to agree with respect. No doubt I respect him a lot. Respecting doesn't have to agree and follow his way/style completely. Sometimes I disagree but I still respect. When he pushes me doing things which I felt is wrong, I higher my tone when speaking to him clarifying how wrong it is and look away.

Sometimes, I feel he is afraid of me. When I create chaos that is beyond his imagination and prediction.

I do not know why, I am acting such a way. Is that just me? Who am I? Can I like-respect-support-love-enjoy-follow all the way to the end in a work relationship without any horrible feeling on both party?

Sometimes, I feel like I am betraying people around me for my uncontrollable action. Will they feel that I'm scary?

When I am in silent mode, it means I am arranging my strategy. I put my strategy into action immediately when the confident of winning touches the green level.





Sang happy birthday song to Hafiz today. He is same age as me. Yah, he is one of the most rational man in the office. Of cz Chia and Hafiz are equally rational. I like the idea of being rational.

After 1year of leaving uni, I learnt that a good leader-management must not make decision based on emotions-politics-gossip-relationship. This will only make your work even harder, add working pressure, worst of all, is when your co-worker look down at you with their pair of eye. One sour fact is that, many decides based on relationship! High importance for a sales person to build good relations and gives high attention to their customers.

I'm sorry to most people who see my sour face for many days at office.