Any cravings?

Painted the wardrobe.

Waiting for it to dry.

Been relaxing and endless facebook, endless pillow talk with my little sister.

I wanted to do more things during this time when I am having all the time I want.

But the thing is, I'm always feeling tired and tired and tired!!! Everyday always feels like don't have enough energy to move around.

Now, hopefully can get some people to come over to see if can install the ceiling light at my room. Need 4 of it.

After that, will be the painting session. Was thinking pink.

I am gonna stay here for at least 2-3 years long!!! So I need a good living space.

Then that's it. Almost done.

There are many things I had in mind, things I would buy and do to make my parents happy living. The whole thing is only about money.

New job starting on December 16th. Training at KL first.

I unconsciously will like to compare with others. But to think about, how can u actually measure the accurate comparison with others? Some people enjoy having lots of time and don't chase much for money. To some other people, their life lived to get the best partner, then doing whatever it takes to make that somebody happy is what satisfy. In the end, satisfaction matters most. Satisfaction is a very personalised aspect.

When you think that you are way successful than others in what you are having, doesn't mean that some other people will think that you are successful. Each and every one has their very own definition of success. One's success does not necessarily a success in the eye of another.

My aim now is to transform my room into something that will makes me feel elegant!

Yes, my satisfaction in life comes when I feel a strong aura of elegance in me.

On the other note, I was thinking to bring my family to have a very nice night at Cherating beach. BBQ by the beach, listening to strong wave melody from ocean. To stay a night at the resort I had been to. To enjoy the slow moving time.

All I am doing and thinking is to see an extreme happiness in the face of my old man. That's what matters now.

A little

A little worried of the job offer that will come to me, because I will wonder if I will ever do it right.

A little worried of what life may become.

A little worried if I would be able to survive long in the job.

Tired of Interview

Argh so tiring tiring tiring to keep going for interview, I want a real job offer. Something I will definitely want it when I see it.

What's the use being invited to lots of interview when there's no one good job offer? Good one, come one, swim to me one good definite job offer. Something that will give me a little pride, a little future, and tonnes of inspiration!

Thank you.

Neighbourhood

What is wrong with Feng Shui, or Luck thingy going on around my neighbourhood ha?!!

Two neighbours, two fathers past away due to lung cancer! It's so horrific! I feel so sorry for them, it makes me really shiver. They both have a kid of my age, born in the year of Tiger.

I nearly lost mine and I would gather whatever internal power I had inside to want him to stay with us in this world.

There's so many shocking news this year. Many scary things happen. Quickly enter year of rabbit and let the world feng shui change.

Please, When.....

Sigh

A bad word to start with on my blog.

Jobless.

Money getting lesser.

Wasting time endlessly.

Full of worries.

Down with flu, little cough, sniff sniff and phlegm.

Receive many phone calls.

Receive few interview invitations.

There's one phone call.

Full of beautiful description.

But then, there's no interview invitation.

Pleasant at the start, but irritating at the end.

What life is, if it is not complicated this way.

Unstable.

Unpredictable.

Changeable.

Insecurity.

On top of all that.

I learnt to be grateful better than ever.

For all this.

I am grateful for,

I had not once incapable to fill hunger

I had not once incapable to provide shelter

I had not once incapable to be healthy-movement freedom

I had not once incapable to love people around

I had not once incapable to receive love from my dear parents and sisters

and for someone to want me to be part of his life for as long as God allows.

Thankful than ever.

Miserable days at Malacca had ended.

Thinking back of my life then.

I would want to live this present life.

Forget the past.

Building solid foundation to future.

I care least what was behind.

For I care most what's today and tomorrow can become on me.

This picture below.

A happy tea time with sister and him.

What else could I ask for.

God had treated me fair.

Gave me something REALLY precious.

And gave me something REALLY hidden inside me.

It's an adventure for me.

To look for what I desired.

Once again.

I am thankful to maximum.

For I still had a complete happy family.

I would do whatever I can.

To keep this happy family for as long as God allows.

Received SGD pay check

Been waiting for this for so long. Finally, received my pay check in SGD. Really excited when receive it. This is my first ever pay check in SGD!! A lot more compare to RM right?

Singapore life is awesome I would say. Life with my old best friend. I usually won't put her as best friend, but more of a true friend. She draws the beautiful life of mine during my high school time. And I'm glad she is part of my life again when I started my new life in Singapore.

You need a bf, you need your family, and you need a bff too in making life more solid inside out!

This is all need, not what you want! You sometimes just don't want them, but in the end finding yourself needing them! Life is funny sometimes.

Life is great in Singapore, the only missing thing is a great manager in the office. I won't know when the new manager is coming in, but I hope as soon as possible. I would really like it if someone can guide me through in my work. For now, I have to do everything on my own, it looks like pretty tough and yes it is.

I'm grateful, dad survives heart attacks and rest nicely at home. He is the best daddy in my life, giving me the freedom to have fun with my friends without limiting because he knows I am having good time with them, giving me the transportation needs when I still couldn't drive fetching me everywhere I need to and I was very demanding needing to go to many places still he fetches me with love, I would never forget what he had given me and will do my very best to give him what he needs.