Been so long staying complicated like this. Out of pressure, I complained it to my friends. What can be better.
I didn't build good friendship anymore because I intend to build good relationship. Sometimes I just feel so so sorry to get close with the wrong people.
However it is, I just pray that things are good for the people who loved me who cared me who tried to protect me in every way it is.
I guess I am changing as the time pass. I no longer have the desire like I had before. I no longer build any friendship, mix with anyone, talk with anyone. I became much selective and choosing only the people I think worth my time. I guess this is a sign of improved maturity in me?
I don't want to disappoint my friends and family anymore. I don't want to put down the people I cared about. True love is not hard to find, it is a matter of the right things being done. I had lost myself for a long period of time. Very much needed to be alone. Very much needed to stay away from everything and enjoy a good movie myself. Learn something for good. Stop socializing so much for good.
Just go with whatever life has to come. But keep up the values I would like to get as a result. I can't be keeping the same behavior in order to get some different result.
Things might mess up, but it is best for me to just be strong inside and enjoy whatever life has to come for me. To make this man treat me with respect, I will show him my silence. Silence is power. Silence is when he will do whatever you want of him.
Anyway, the fight is over I am back on my life. I am not much affected. Just that he don't shout at me so much anymore. Don't answer his call can mean better. Next time I will just off my cell phone and disconnect forever with him.
