Am I Scary?

I'm down down down down.

I think my manager can be shocked and afraid of me when I suddenly doing things that didn't have sign on my face.

Keep telling myself, reduce outing, reduce dinner outside, but I still failed to reject the dinner invited to celebrate H's birthday.

I needed! not want! Yes I needed more time at home clearing and cleaning what should.

I don't know where I am heading in my life. I take advise from my manager seriously. Build strong foundation, don't involve in politics. Talking about my manager... A lot said that he is like my father. In terms of his age and my age, he appears like my father. We speak hokkien and sense some gap due to the age gap.

Sometimes, I do disagree with what he said but yet I have to agree with respect. No doubt I respect him a lot. Respecting doesn't have to agree and follow his way/style completely. Sometimes I disagree but I still respect. When he pushes me doing things which I felt is wrong, I higher my tone when speaking to him clarifying how wrong it is and look away.

Sometimes, I feel he is afraid of me. When I create chaos that is beyond his imagination and prediction.

I do not know why, I am acting such a way. Is that just me? Who am I? Can I like-respect-support-love-enjoy-follow all the way to the end in a work relationship without any horrible feeling on both party?

Sometimes, I feel like I am betraying people around me for my uncontrollable action. Will they feel that I'm scary?

When I am in silent mode, it means I am arranging my strategy. I put my strategy into action immediately when the confident of winning touches the green level.





Sang happy birthday song to Hafiz today. He is same age as me. Yah, he is one of the most rational man in the office. Of cz Chia and Hafiz are equally rational. I like the idea of being rational.

After 1year of leaving uni, I learnt that a good leader-management must not make decision based on emotions-politics-gossip-relationship. This will only make your work even harder, add working pressure, worst of all, is when your co-worker look down at you with their pair of eye. One sour fact is that, many decides based on relationship! High importance for a sales person to build good relations and gives high attention to their customers.

I'm sorry to most people who see my sour face for many days at office.