About office

Sigh
Sien
Lazy to work.
Feels like I am working for others.

There is war. There is complication. I wonder how people think about me.
I was thinking, they must have been hating me alot. I am thinking, they must have been thinking I am a bullshit. They must have been thinking that I am stupid. They must have been...

I am not a good player. Sometimes I failed to love people genuinely, but I want to do my best in loving people who cares so much about me.

Sigh. People I trust ends up telling lies, ends up acting. Why is it so hard to just simply trust people?? Why is it so hard for people to help me with simple job?? Why must they make it difficult for everyone for the love of politics??

Sometimes, I feel people are scary. Why can't they just be true to me like how I am to them?

Sigh, sigh sigh.