Singapore Training

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This is the second week I am here. For official training of my new job as a Consultant Engineer.

Now that I know clearly about my job scope, responsibility, career opportunity and most importantly my mentor.

He has been very kind and committed in educating me lots of things. Almost teaching and giving me everything that a new CE would have to know.

The first 4days of trainings went pretty smooth. Until the 4th day, he invited me to dinner with his wife and sons. From there on everything changes. It was a stressful night I would say. I went home trying to figure out why was that happening in front of me. Why was I feeling so much much awkwardness.

Coincidently, my best friend's house is just few doors away from his home. And that make the stressful drop some.

So on Friday night, I consult my friend who is a guy. And he helped me to interpret the whole thing and his opinion is that his wife might find out that he is interested in me, and that she finds a heavy need to meet me face to face with the hope that this girl his husband is working closely with will not destroy their happy family.

Complication complication. The worst thing of all, I faced sleepless night for two nights, mind full of worries and nonsense. Was imagining myself being a "gundik"!! I was like WTF. How could I become one.

Once, he told me that he was a very conventional, or old minded type of guy. But then, according to Chinese tradition, a man can have many wives as he wishes because his wife will have no say and that his decision is what the family has to obey. His decision on anything is final. It was a very "da nan ren style".

Through the period of us learning things together, he asked me lots of questions of my opinion on him. I always find myself stumbling in finding words for his answer.

So I had sleepless night on Sunday, welcoming Monday with lots of emotions, and mood twisting pushing me to go crazy for nothing. That sounded horrible enough. Something even worst happen then, he brings me to a meeting room for some private talk. He starts bringing the conversation in a long and windy manner. Keywords is that, he wants to educated me, instill in me the importance of Japanese working ethics and culture I should cultivate.

My face dropped immediately when he finish saying, this are the Japanese spirit that I have to bring along the way, and past it down to my future new staff someday. I was so anti-Japanese company already and I will have to implant this spirit in me, contradicts boldly.

After that talking session with me, the whole working hour duration he was not even talking to me, not even looking at me, not even bothered to find me existing. Until the work time is over, we start talking and he start teaching me AP100 Punching machine. We ended quite late. Almost reaching 9pm only I walk out. We both are so exhausted.

This morning, he bring me to the meeting room to talk again. This time, he was saying he had come to understand how "ang moh" oriented I am from his finding and realisation. His brain never stops thinking about work, about me even when he go back home. This is what I find. He said he will have to let me understand how importance it is for him to inject this Japanese blood to me, more important than all the all the software skills he is going to pass down to me. I reassure him with, I had talk about this over with my bf on the phone. And yeah, he pretty believes in my bf opinion, how did your bf advise you on this matter. My bf was sharing with me, whenever he go facebook or chatting, he would make sure that his junior won't see it as he didn't want t create a very bad example.

Now, he was a man who went through a life a man should. He was just a man who faces life difficulty and had struggle through before. Note that, he understands what it is to be a man finding career to define himself, he understands what are the values a girl should be having in supporting a man who are going through the perks and peaks of reality, he understands what it is to be a man who behaves in a nerdy and geeky manner, he knows best what are the values a good wife should have in order to carry the pride of a man. Pride the life of a man.

In fact, he actually had given me a very good answer to my searching in the problems I encounter with my bf.

Yah one important thing I almost forgotten to drop here.

He was talking about man, the fact of what man are. The kind of temptations that men must admit it took much from them to resist. Then he was telling stories of his trips to Myanmar with two other colleagues. And they went massaging. His colleagues was attracted to the girls, know their names and go back looking for the girl the following day. So, he was trying to hint me that men alway have desire!!!! I don't know what are this trying to indicate. I will think about.

It's getting really late here and I will have to go back. Think about it.