Sigh

game over

I have no holes to move

because all holes are perfectly cover up

Is this call don't have fate?

He's firm. Extremely firm.

What can I do::

I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better
If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

No more waiting, no more aching
No more fighting, no more trying

Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just gonna let it fly

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

Love me

Summary of 2011

So many events happened this year. Good bad. All came together. But it's going to end soon. I cherished every event, moment happened.

Forced To Be Strong

It's over.
Wake up please.
The chapter had ended.

This is a new chapter.
My life has gone through many chapters.

Sometimes I think what I should do when I miss him that much.
I felt the deep suffocation.
What can I do to stop that suffocation?

sigh.
You can be rational.
You can be strong.
You can be tough.
But you can be so struggling keeping up the positive mental attitude and keep on convincing yourself this is all right.

Sometimes, we need tears to wash away all the pain that was chocked inside.

Bored of Relationship

I've never felt this bored of relationship.
Being controlled.
Being jeopardized.
Is not the kind of thing for me.

I'll see if things will change and grow.
If it's not, then I'll definitely leave.
I'm very sure of this decision.
I will not turn back.
Strictly decisive.

I forgotten what does I felt before
When loving someone so much
And the other person do not
Why staying together anymore

I just felt a strong strong urge to leave
No matter what happen
2012 in Penang
Then I'm off somewhere in the Earth

People said,
Listen to your heart
And I know it much
My heart did not want to continue this boring relationship
Anymore

I want to move on into something fun, exciting, happy, lively
Not something like this at all
I cannot live like this
This is not me

If I'm so so sure, perhaps I can call it off in a week or two...
Another break up
Ah just deal with it
I can start all over again

New romance again
New chapter again

I had enough of him,
I'm seriously bored
I'm seriously tired
Having to please him over and over again

I just want to be myself
Having all the fun I always know I'll enjoy
This is just not for me.
ADIOS

Still down the Hill

Everything is fucked up.
Nothing seems fine.

Let it flow let it flow.
Till my luck gets better.

Little Complication

Well well, relationship are headache. I just want to learn to don't care so much. Just go out. Just hang out. Just hug. Just kiss. Don't get deeper. Simple. Less complication. Don't invest too much emotion.

I don't know what kind of life I want to settle my life with. But let's just see how it goes from here. Well we like it here. Easy life. Not so much excitement anymore.

Wonder if I should get out of Malaysia for a living in few years time? 25 is not young anymore. It's the borderline to settle down my life with something.

I am happy to learn in this corporate world. Now I had see how realistic materialistic it has become.

I guess, I gave up ____ already. There's no point going into anymore. The world is so huge. There will be something good for me, I believe. Having faith in life is important. It will attracts what you're faithful in.

Peace. Serenity.