Tomorrow will be the last day of my employment with Amada. So looking forward to the new job. I am building back all the emotional support I need. The worthy friendship. The worthy relationship. The worthy conversation. It is not easy to build good friendship. Especially quality and good one. Especially with the one you love. Especially with the one you would always wanting to hug.
A new chapter will unfold soon in my life. I am excited and looking forward to the day I am in this new company. My friends all are supportive on my move.
Relationship wise. Still the same. There's not much of changes and I guess I became tired and bored of the same circle that keeps looping on its own.
The same situation. He claimed that when he loves me I betrayed his love. After so long, he still doesn't. Perhaps I am the one who caused everything to go down the drain. Probably I won't be able to get love from him at all. That's the way that's mean to be I guess? That's the way he and me supposed to be together. Sometimes I don't feel we are truly together. I am more of an extra person in his life where he comes to me according to his need. He did put effort to make us better. Something which I cannot deny. However, I find that whatever he is doing is just equivalent to zero when he didn't love me with his heart. For now, I would prefer to be on my own than to have a man who failed to love me with whole heart.
I used to write a lot back then. I realize I write so little nowadays. Chatting with him has been a winning point when written lesser and lesser. I uses lesser and lesser words to express a certain point. The lesser the better it seems. The lesser communication with him the better? I don't see how we can progress much with the same attitude of him. Probably I will quit very soon. I'm extremely tired and exhausted in this floating relationship with him.................
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