Empty and lazy weekend

Guess what?!

It's 3.30pm and I still haven't bath. I'm so so lazy. The training at office sucks, not assigned anything to do and I'm rotting each passing day.

I will go bath in awhile and then read books and sleep? Maybe.

My face's skin is very very terrible now. Don't know what I can do more to improve my skin. Did mask for my face d.

my plan is, next week onwards i will start doing my industrial training report. and by the time i finish my training, my report is done and i can goyang kaki for 1 fucking month.

Emailed to Dr. Sim about my thought of using PLC for my final year project, but still haven't receive reply from him. Sigh........ I know he damn looks down lazy people like me. Wonder if he will ever reply me.

My boss don't care about me at all. The Automgen he had taught me seems like not applicable anywhere. I still prefer ladder diagram. Because I'm good at it.

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I hate sitting at office with nothing to do. At least give me some real task to busy with. At least give me some kind of duty so that I can feel myself useful.

Supposed at 3pm, boss would brief me on the new self-learning kit, called Automgen. It's 3pm now and seems like nothing is happening.

I feel I can't breathe a second thinking how empty my job and life is. I'm worried, feeling insecure of many things. Even so, I got to move on. Those days I can get intimate with my pillows and comforter is the best days of all. No worries, just lay there and rest like a useless woman and wait patiently for something good for me.

I wonder in this world, where do I belong. Always feeling unwanted to everywhere I was standing. :( emo and emo

Days off

Been sick for 14days. No h1n1, but it's the throat getting infected. I saw many reddish kind of 'pimples' everywhere in my throat.

Been going to work less than ever. Rest at home cause I'm sick. What a great excuse. Boss wife messaged me today asking me how I am doing since I didn't message them yesterday and today.

Went to see doctor just now, get antibiotics for my sore throat and it only cost me RM28. This time round is Chinese doctor. Unlike the Indian doctor, I was charged God damn RM50.

Been sleeping for hours and hours during my sick days. Going to work tomorrow, which is Thursday and Friday after work, I will be heading to LCCT for my Singapore flight. Gonna be very excited about it. Traveling all alone to Singapore with flight! keke

Nothing much to worry or think about my current life, except for thinking what are the qualities I need from a man in my life. And I'm pretty sure I need the following as basic:

1. Stronger than me inside out.
2. Taller than me.
3. Stable and matured.
4. Loves badminton and swimming.
5. A car to fetch me around.
6. Gentleman, like never allow the girl to suffer for him!!
7. Good family background, friendly warm and nice.
8. Gives me surprise from time to time.
9. Gives each other the freedom and space needed, not controlling and not jealous type.
10. Financially capable to provide house and kids.

For now, I am single and available. I would only like to take Sim as my best friend for now until further development.

My work in Juravic is boring. Seriously boring to death. No task, no objective and just lead each day aimlessly.

For now, my hope and dream would to meet someone I can confidently assure I want him for the rest of my life, and also finish up my degree and enjoy my after uni's trip smoothly.

At Internet Cafe

47 minutes left
RM5 for 3hours.
Damnd good HP 21inch flat screen, hp keyboard or maybe hp pc.

Computer good quality.
screen good
can play game comfortably, and what more, can also watch movie, play mini games, listen to music, watch anime, what ever it is, they provide very good database for the user to enjoy.

Everything is smooth today

God, I want to express my gratitude for your love for me.

Today many pleasant event happen.

Wake up late to work, damn tired cause I sleep at 2am the night before. Reach office about 9.30am, and damn stupid W1max is doing maintenance due to thunderstorm and rainfall yesterday.

Went out early lunch at 11am and end up at Starbucks for breakfast set, RM6.85. Drank half of the coffee and cause me not to sleep even until now at this wee hour. Oh my, my brain is so active.

Was so disappointing and went out to buy magazine and cost me RM8. Sad. Should have buy cheap magazine like CLEO. The magazine don't have content one. Just that the fashion and make up style very high class I find.

Then at 1pm, I go check the internet and it's working. I was so happy and quickly get my ass off to search for flight for my after uni life trip. Keep looking, keep asking, keep reading for hours.

Until finally at 5.30pm I have to book my flight, boss going home at 6pm. Messaged my friend she said I can stay at her place. Calculated everything and think that it is within our budget. So my flight is booked!!!! Hooray.

While booking my flight, a get a phone call. A guy want to view my room. And he came after 6pm and had a good instinct he wants the room. Yah, he did. He called me an hour later to confirm taking my room and he is paying me RM50 tomorrow as booking the room.

Pray hard everything goes smoothly. Pray hard he will move in to my room as decided, pray hard he will returns me all my deposit. Pray hard.

And I damn enjoy my 7pm drama. Really love the drama so so much. After the drama end, I quickly change and went down to meet my very good friend and we played badminton. It was fun. Really glad to have a friend like her.

We chi chatted and went ta pao food and went back home.

Worst thing of all is the toilet light is not working. Damn it. After I bathed in the dark, the toilet room light back.

Oh yah, when I was in office, I get a phone call asking me to work next weekend also. So extra money opportunity again. Hope there are more and more money coming in.

Morning at office

Yesterday, was not in the mood to work at all. Feeling pathetic going websites for hours and forcing myself hard to do something right for my report.

This work here don't suit me. If it was given to some other people, they might have benefit from the software given and the non blockage of internet access.

And here I am, early in the morning in the office and the first thing is to come here and blog.

Yesterday was a tired but meaningful day. I went to pasar malam again. This time with my housemates!! They are so warm. I have this housemate whom is lovely and sweet. She's really a good person, and that's why she has got a very lovely bf and a guy who is as rich as datuk will offer her to be her lelaki simpanan. No doubt, she has the quality.

Went to see her new apartment, they are moving out tomorrow. The new apartment is fantastic. With a masterbed room with only RM450, with their own toilet and the house was fully furnished!! It thrilled me a little with the big brand new fridge, new water filter, new cooking stove, new room's ceiling fan, newly painted house and new dining table. The house is so well equiped.

The lovely beautiful house made me want to move there and stay with them after graduate. Sigh... The house is nice, can cook everyday and everything is almost perfect there. Not sure of the housemate's attitude, but having their own toilet is no big issue.

Lately was down with PMS. I can feel my emotions wave is harsh.

Good news is that, I'm getting a part time job at KL PC Fair. The PIC said there will be commision in the printer I sell. So I plan want to fight for my commision, for better trip to Singapore!!!!!

It has been one and a half year since I last visit Singapore. My previous visit to Singapore was my one day trip there.

Bought a red carrot and a white carrot, plan to boil soup with it. The carrots cost me RM2, and bought bawang, RM0.80. Plan to buy some potatoes. Gotta make things right this time. Not keeping my food in the fridge till the whole damn thing rotten.

And I bought a very expensive magazine to cheer myself. But soon I realise that it's not worth the price.

Now, I read magazine more than books. Next month going to stop sharing internet service with them. Means no more online at home. hehe... I hardly use the internet and I'm paying it. If I download it only affects the quality of the line. So, I better safe my money up and spend more time on finishing those books I bought.

Everything is good

It feels like the cycle of my life is moving up, more and more friends come into my life and I'm trully thankful for it. I hope all this will slolwy lead me to stable life. I don't want any difficult emotions anymore. I just want to be happy, satisfied, open minded, and worry free.

Make new friends, keeping old friends, loving my best friends, good friends and friends around. Learning to forgive and forget. Learning to move on with less egoism, and willing to open up my heart for any friends.

Rainbow and butterflies finally came out after a series of stormy days.