Please, When.....

Sigh

A bad word to start with on my blog.

Jobless.

Money getting lesser.

Wasting time endlessly.

Full of worries.

Down with flu, little cough, sniff sniff and phlegm.

Receive many phone calls.

Receive few interview invitations.

There's one phone call.

Full of beautiful description.

But then, there's no interview invitation.

Pleasant at the start, but irritating at the end.

What life is, if it is not complicated this way.

Unstable.

Unpredictable.

Changeable.

Insecurity.

On top of all that.

I learnt to be grateful better than ever.

For all this.

I am grateful for,

I had not once incapable to fill hunger

I had not once incapable to provide shelter

I had not once incapable to be healthy-movement freedom

I had not once incapable to love people around

I had not once incapable to receive love from my dear parents and sisters

and for someone to want me to be part of his life for as long as God allows.

Thankful than ever.

Miserable days at Malacca had ended.

Thinking back of my life then.

I would want to live this present life.

Forget the past.

Building solid foundation to future.

I care least what was behind.

For I care most what's today and tomorrow can become on me.

This picture below.

A happy tea time with sister and him.

What else could I ask for.

God had treated me fair.

Gave me something REALLY precious.

And gave me something REALLY hidden inside me.

It's an adventure for me.

To look for what I desired.

Once again.

I am thankful to maximum.

For I still had a complete happy family.

I would do whatever I can.

To keep this happy family for as long as God allows.

Received SGD pay check

Been waiting for this for so long. Finally, received my pay check in SGD. Really excited when receive it. This is my first ever pay check in SGD!! A lot more compare to RM right?

Singapore life is awesome I would say. Life with my old best friend. I usually won't put her as best friend, but more of a true friend. She draws the beautiful life of mine during my high school time. And I'm glad she is part of my life again when I started my new life in Singapore.

You need a bf, you need your family, and you need a bff too in making life more solid inside out!

This is all need, not what you want! You sometimes just don't want them, but in the end finding yourself needing them! Life is funny sometimes.

Life is great in Singapore, the only missing thing is a great manager in the office. I won't know when the new manager is coming in, but I hope as soon as possible. I would really like it if someone can guide me through in my work. For now, I have to do everything on my own, it looks like pretty tough and yes it is.

I'm grateful, dad survives heart attacks and rest nicely at home. He is the best daddy in my life, giving me the freedom to have fun with my friends without limiting because he knows I am having good time with them, giving me the transportation needs when I still couldn't drive fetching me everywhere I need to and I was very demanding needing to go to many places still he fetches me with love, I would never forget what he had given me and will do my very best to give him what he needs.

The Way We're Working Isn't Working

Yeah, this is the book I get for myself when I made my one day trip with Sim to KL.

I don't know why, when I see this book I just want to buy it because I want to read it.

I was so lost in the working world, I hope I can find some answer through this book.

It cost me RM58.

I bought another two books. Total 3 books for RM114. It's gonna worth every Ringgit of my money.

Another two book is from Frank Mc. Court. I had talk about his book on my very first blog post in this blog. I realise the book I read is the second book. I bought his first and third memoir book.

I always think it's worth buying a book. I must pay the author, for bringing beautiful lessons and stories to entertain my life. Not many author are able to write really good book that will dance with my heart and brain.

But I won't watch original, because I think there are still millions of people out there who will watch original. So it kinda makes me think that my contribution is insignificant while the portion of money I have to pay is large.

I still have many books not finish reading yet. There's still many more books I want to read but not able to find time for it. I hope my coming holidays would be able to give me more time to do what I desire to do for long time. Magazines to read, weekly and monthly. I was now so back behind. Need to catch up, or else I would keep reading last month magazines to catch up with the latest copy of magazine.

Back to my main objective of switching on my laptop just to share this important conclusion from the the first chapter of the book.

"It is also true that if you're not actively working to get better at what you do, there's a good chance you're getting worse, no matter what's the quality of your initial training may have been"

Life sometimes is a joke. It's funny how I get a bf like him (someone perfectly opposite) that'll encourage me to read and and finally influence me to love to read.

Life is a sour for now, I hope things will change or improve eventually. Let's pray sincerely - I deemed this as something hard to achieve. I found myself often fail to be truly sincere in my prayers. I wonder how it can become.

It Has Been A Long Long Time

Omg, I just can't find time to come here to blog. Time passes too fast, tied down with unhappy environment. Argh I feel so suffocated there...............

Hardly can find time to go facebook. In the office, have to curi curi go facebook. Sien!!!

I dislike my job, what the fuck right???

Oh my, I just don't know how. I just feel so strong that I should leave. I just can't can't can't bear to sit at office and sell spare parts. It's so borring, unchallenging, unmotivated, uninspiring. Maybe mostly because I didn't want to be here.

Last Singapore trip was nice and LOVELY. Meet up with all my sweet friends. And had some slow and sweet moment together.

Aha, what life is about. I start questioning the meaning of life, the meaning of working for someone, the meaning of making someone rich and richer.

I do hope Sim do not get stuck in a working world like me, I always support what he was doing because fact is working world is not just right for anybody.

I was so lost, LOST and LOST.

I want something just to have a little direction in my life though. I got quite upset when I screwed up last 2 days. What to do, this is life. Uncertainties, unpredictable, unstable.. argh it's just all inside me.

I got to promote good energy around me. I got to change gear, always change gear, the gear box also rosak liao. =_=

Confident issue, that's what Sim always said to me. He is so right. He understands me.

Working Adult

Hoo haaa.... In a glimpse of time, I am not a working adult. No more crying for candies. I have to admit that it has been a long time ago since I last blog.

Since I'm done with MMU, I was so busy everywhere.

Let me update you on what has been going on since I reach Penang.

After one day resting at home, I must organize my my clothes in a proper wardrobe. Was searching high and low to find a good place for my clothes. It wasn't easy to find a place. Every sisters was occupying places. Even those who are not staying at home anymore has a bundle of clothes here. It took me almost 2-3days to finally finish placing all my clothes neatly and properly into wardrobe.

After one month, my clothes are all over inside the wardrobe. No longer properly organized.

My sister was having exam soon when I am home. She asked me to teach her add maths. So I guided her through for few days before I set off to Melbourne. I have to admit that I still have interest in add maths. It was always fun solving add maths problem. Perhaps, form four add maths was way simple and EASY. Haha~~

And yeah 11days at Melbourne was a like a dream come true. Extremely happy just pondering around the city. There are so many things to watch, so many things to observe. The feeling walking down the street was just simply great. A simple and yet contented trip I had. I had it on my way.

We didn't go to many places. But just go into detail in every street and malls in the city. We thought we had finish the whole city in the first 5 days. When we are at St. Kilda, we missed Melbourne city so much. That's when we think that we love city far more than suburban. We're supposed to spend the rest of the 4days at St. Kilda. But after a night there, we decided to pack our bag and go back to Melbourne city. At the city, I feel like "Yeah this is where I want to be!!!!!"

I have to admit that I'm more of a city girl than small town girl. Even though I might not spend time enjoying the city and spend more time in my own space, I would be happy just like that when I'm staying at city.

My memories of Melbourne?

The excitement of walking down the street, watching ang moh in the country, watching how people would have a cup of coffee on their hand while walking to keep themselves warm.

The excitement to meet my schoolmate there!! I was just ONE LUCKY GIRL. I meet friend here and there while travelling. Though I don't mean that I meet like many friends, it was just one friend I met that make my travelling so much meaningful. Thanks Shirley from Melbourne. Thanks Martina from Jakarta. Thanks Chenting, Sychiann and Andrea from Singapore.

I have to say that it's the best thing in my life. Fact is that the best thing in life only happens once in awhile. And yeah I'm not asking for more.

Shortly after coming back from Melbourne, I have to report to work. I was down with a little flu and fever on my first day of work. A lorry break down in the middle of Penang bridge on my way to work. Bad sign huh? Pretty much.

Then when I arrive at office, I felt warm. My senior instructed me to places I have to know, and introduces me to people there. I was shivering cold from the centralized air-cond. People in the office feel just fine with the temperature but not me. My body got so tired from fighting against the low temperature.

Work was pretty fine so far. Still a lot of thinking was in the process. I still can't figure out the foundation plan for my life. In the process of mapping @,@

Final Year Project

Will this be really final year project? Me and Sim had the same doubts. We can always try our very best to do the best, but nothing is ever secured. Nothing is ever promising in life. Anything can turn wrong in life within seconds and minutes. We just have to be ready always like what girl guide had taught me, cogan kata pandu puteri "selalu sedia".

Another 11 days to presentation day. My heart is still sank with fear. I am easily afraid if anything goes wrong between this period of time. This is the critical time of my life. Seriously critical though its not a billion dollar business, but it's about time which money cannot replace. I am very sure I don't want to waste my time here anymore. I hope I will be able to do my very best in this time before 10th of May.

Studying for exam is easier than doing the technician job, drilling, screwing, measuring, sawing, and cutting. While Sim is doing the operator job with the bread board, from a hole to another hole and test.

Holy holy holy life, this is engineering life and I am 100% sure I don't belong here.

My bed room had turn into mechanical and electronic lab.. A picture describe all.

Really pray hard that everything will be xun xun li li.... After finalise the schematics, I want to go to temple to pray again. I can do my very best, but the rest is on God's hand.