Dooosh

When I see my phone ring, I was thinking yah good you called to update me. Then she told me there are two important news to break to you. Both of them are not really a good news after all. Trip down south deferred. Double sob. Just look at the bright side would make things easier.

Ting coming to Penang this weekend. So going to ready some energy to have really lots of fun with her. Not meeting her for quite some time already, about one month? Is that long? Normal.

Went out with Lin today. Just somehow wish her to be staying at Chai Leng Park whenever I stay at Inderawasih. Somebody really nice to hang out with. Easy going, and yah some kind of chemistry, having some same level of frequency. Hard to find a friend so warm to be with. She's leaving soon. huhu

Frank Mc Court

Oh oh... "McCourt died at a Manhattan hospice after a short battle with skin cancer. The author announced in May that he was undergoing chemotherapy for melanoma."

He was a talented writer, I love his writing to max!! He share with us, bringing back what was there in the early 18th century. How things was in details manner. His essays sound slow and smooth. And I wonder how he would remember all the things when he was just only 4 years old. Perhaps his childhood had give him too much significant suffering that the memory sticks on his mind.

Drowned into the past at America, his father was a horrible drinker and smoker. I wonder how could a man can be so stupid, so ignorance of his own family hunger for his own addiction towards smoke and alcohol. People who failed to move out of their addiction are weak and losers. Double salute and appreciate how my father would remove cigarettes smoke from his lung for his beloved family.

Fedex or Amada

I am being invited for interview from Fedex, I am still in the midst of dense thinking should I grab this or not......... I already had an offer at Japanese company.

I definitely love US company very much more than Japanese company. I would definitely be extremely excited like how I did at Singapore.

But, my excitement at working as a business development executive had got me with a great disappointment. My highest energy to work out the best ends up a disaster. For now, my energy to work in sales/business development hardly grows.

Would my mental power be strong enough to grab the job? I am still trying hard to gather all my internal energy if I would be able to bring out the best in me. I am still thinking if Fedex is all that I want.

Would I be able to have this strong believe on Fedex like how I did for Girl Guide Association?

arghhh what to decide??? consulting engineer versus sales executive at Fedex?!

Any cravings?

Painted the wardrobe.

Waiting for it to dry.

Been relaxing and endless facebook, endless pillow talk with my little sister.

I wanted to do more things during this time when I am having all the time I want.

But the thing is, I'm always feeling tired and tired and tired!!! Everyday always feels like don't have enough energy to move around.

Now, hopefully can get some people to come over to see if can install the ceiling light at my room. Need 4 of it.

After that, will be the painting session. Was thinking pink.

I am gonna stay here for at least 2-3 years long!!! So I need a good living space.

Then that's it. Almost done.

There are many things I had in mind, things I would buy and do to make my parents happy living. The whole thing is only about money.

New job starting on December 16th. Training at KL first.

I unconsciously will like to compare with others. But to think about, how can u actually measure the accurate comparison with others? Some people enjoy having lots of time and don't chase much for money. To some other people, their life lived to get the best partner, then doing whatever it takes to make that somebody happy is what satisfy. In the end, satisfaction matters most. Satisfaction is a very personalised aspect.

When you think that you are way successful than others in what you are having, doesn't mean that some other people will think that you are successful. Each and every one has their very own definition of success. One's success does not necessarily a success in the eye of another.

My aim now is to transform my room into something that will makes me feel elegant!

Yes, my satisfaction in life comes when I feel a strong aura of elegance in me.

On the other note, I was thinking to bring my family to have a very nice night at Cherating beach. BBQ by the beach, listening to strong wave melody from ocean. To stay a night at the resort I had been to. To enjoy the slow moving time.

All I am doing and thinking is to see an extreme happiness in the face of my old man. That's what matters now.

A little

A little worried of the job offer that will come to me, because I will wonder if I will ever do it right.

A little worried of what life may become.

A little worried if I would be able to survive long in the job.

Tired of Interview

Argh so tiring tiring tiring to keep going for interview, I want a real job offer. Something I will definitely want it when I see it.

What's the use being invited to lots of interview when there's no one good job offer? Good one, come one, swim to me one good definite job offer. Something that will give me a little pride, a little future, and tonnes of inspiration!

Thank you.

Neighbourhood

What is wrong with Feng Shui, or Luck thingy going on around my neighbourhood ha?!!

Two neighbours, two fathers past away due to lung cancer! It's so horrific! I feel so sorry for them, it makes me really shiver. They both have a kid of my age, born in the year of Tiger.

I nearly lost mine and I would gather whatever internal power I had inside to want him to stay with us in this world.

There's so many shocking news this year. Many scary things happen. Quickly enter year of rabbit and let the world feng shui change.