Why

Why there isn't a place for me to keep my handbags?
80% of the things I have is rubbish.
But why do I bother keeping them?

This house suppose to be comfortable, but there are too many rubbish. I do keep memorable things, but I don't like to keep things which doesn't unfold meaning or memories.

I hate owning things, because it means my responsibility in guarding it becomes more.
I'm very sad with my croaked teeth. I can't bite at all with my front teeth. I need to get envanline dentin as advertised by xiaxue.

Sigh, life is so meaningless. I don't know what to do. I think too much,I know too much, I asked too much, I questioned too much.

Being me is just so complicated.

About office

Sigh
Sien
Lazy to work.
Feels like I am working for others.

There is war. There is complication. I wonder how people think about me.
I was thinking, they must have been hating me alot. I am thinking, they must have been thinking I am a bullshit. They must have been thinking that I am stupid. They must have been...

I am not a good player. Sometimes I failed to love people genuinely, but I want to do my best in loving people who cares so much about me.

Sigh. People I trust ends up telling lies, ends up acting. Why is it so hard to just simply trust people?? Why is it so hard for people to help me with simple job?? Why must they make it difficult for everyone for the love of politics??

Sometimes, I feel people are scary. Why can't they just be true to me like how I am to them?

Sigh, sigh sigh.

It's been a month long

Disappear from blogging for sometime. I'm here to announce that I'm still doing good great and fantastic.

Though work politics is pushing me to stick my face on the wall.... I would like to think, I'm grateful I'm not jobless. I'm grateful my life is able to get proper balance between personal leisure, family, partner, and friends.

Live life care freely, live happily, live cheerfully, live energetically, live peacefully, live harmoniously, live beautifully, live lovingly, live positively, live fantastically, live wonderfully, live crazily, live meaningfully, live it on live it on.

YAY!!!!!!!!! cheers cheers cheers.

My Hope On You

Saw an advertisement on a job that could offer 7K of salary with one solid year experience. The salary can go up to 10k if you are more experienced. Would someday this kind of money flows to me? aha...

Good news is that Makabe the Japanese boss suggested me to the Singapore Expo and the good news is that the all expenses are taken care by the Singapore office. Appreciate him much.

This morning, my boss told me he got a big hit from Makabe when he was here at Penang. Pity him nia.

Politics

Wished there is less politics, more peace and serenity in my office.

When I pray, I should include this.

I thought this small office is free from politics. Yes, KL office is badly affected with politics, but please don't let the virus affect PG office k!

A kind moment in life to remember:

I was going to customer place. Without asking my colleague where the exact location of the office is, by just google it, I drove all the way down to Kulim just to find myself in a very wrong place. I was lost in a big city of Kulim Hi-Tech Park.

So, I had to call my colleague and he asked me to call my customer to ask for direction. This customer was so kind, he offered himself to come to find me to direct me to their factory without me requesting. I feel touched by their kindness. This world is beautiful when everyone helps each other, showing kindness and care even to the people we don't even see before.

Life Dilemma

Should I buy a house? Should I buy a car? Should I travel more? Should I this should I that....... It's not easy thing to achieve right?

I was informed of something quite ugly today. I should take it positively. Shouldn't take things negatively at all.

Okei, today on, I am going to live a more disciplined and well managed life.

Need to clear my wardrobe again and also my messy make up drawer. Life is so difficult over here at Malaysia. The rich get richer the poor get poorer.

I see more perspective of Malaysia, and it always ended up disappointing. Look at the society, look at their lives. It's all shopping mall oriented. Who becomes richer?? Have you ever ask yourself, why every shopping malls in Malaysia is the same?? The shops you can find in every mall is almost the same!!! Let me name a few here, they are always Himalaya, Watson, Guardian, PDI, Guess, Parkson, Bata, McD, KFC, Pizza Hut, Burger King, Subway and so on. There are only a few repeated branded shops that are able to survive in this high rental malls!! And I just find every malls are just the same. Even if you go up to Melaka, Johor, Penang, or KL wherever you see a big big malls, they are always with the standard branded shops. They are always the same!

You certainly can find Shihlin (Taiwanese food stall), New Zealand Natural, Baskin 31 Robins, Hot dog 1901. Hey people, they are all doing franchising all over Malaysia. People who support them, are making these boss who franchise their business richer.

We no longer find unique, inspired, special, artistic shops in malls. Enthusiast, talented, visionaries, entrepreneurs young people are able to run their business through websites only. Chances are decorating their websites that appear like a shop to them. We shoppers paying some big shit amount of parking just to see the dominant business seller in the market, from a place to another.

And those people who don't have their own standing often find themselves drowned into the blind society of buying fancying and aiming for branded bags and clothing. They themselves become poorer in order to support the rich. And so the rich get richer.

Until today, I still fail to find the meaning or the excitement or the permanent happiness if I were to own some branded bags that would cost 100% of my pay. I would be happy enough with a 70% on sale bag with pretty good design that can serve me well.

I would find my money well spend on helping people, on creating a good relationship/friendship, on creating meaning in the life of others or just giving to the poor ones who failed to fill their stomach with healthy food.

Why do I see the world in such a way? Maybe because I am still not a parent. Maybe someday when I am a mother, I wouldn't say all this. I would just reserve the best for my kids maybe?

I still think doing the best is the best words to live with. Cheers

Finally Free

This whole week, after work was full of outings! And I hit the bed dozing off to sleep in minutes.

Today is the only day I am free from any friends invitations. Yet I am going over to a friend's place after dinner.

I was thinking if I am keeping too many friends? From what am I going to benefit from all that? People used to tell me, we need only a few close friends not big amount of hie bye friends.

Today is the day, long awaited I am able to enjoy the whole day of doing nothing! Well rested. Hormone starts to get imbalance. With cravings for rojak, cravings for tasty food. Missing my bf.

Well well, I was originally a very lazy bum! I have to admit to this. Being lazy at home is genuinely me.

Tomorrow karaoke session with CBW girls. Been quite long since I mix and meet SGGS friends.

Su Ann asked me if I want her for today as she is going out with her friends soon, I didn't request her to stay, because I was so lazy to go out. And now, she went out already.. If she is around, we probably would have go to Sunway for Winter Warmers or Starbucks or Cendol session.

I love my weekdays more. It has been a fun time with my colleague at office. Everyone still not in the mood of work yet. I'm grateful for nice work-mate at office. Pray that all this nice bond can last as long as I am with this Company at Penang.

I like it when life is beautiful.

Friday morning, everyone is not working except me. I was still sleeping and my phone rang. Surprisingly it was my coll, offering to tapao McDonald as breakfast for me. And I drank a whole cup of coffee. The extra nice thing is that, she even put creamer and sugar for me! Starting to love her.

Some other day, dad would go morning walk early morning and go tapao food for us as breakfast. This is the most beautiful thing for me. I feel being pampered.

Some quiet people are actually a very nice people instead. I was working at my customer's place. Skipping my lunch. My stomach was co-operative due to the heavy breakfast of McD. But this girl realise I didn't have anything for my lunch and she offered me biscuits!! Also asked me if I want water. I thought I left my water bottle at car, she asked me to give me bottle and she can help me fill in. I appreciate this beautiful offer made my people I don't even know.

Received bad news from my teacher, as he is leaving to Bangladesh. I would have to work without much assistant from him. Sad sad sad.

Imagine how tough my work is. I am just 1.5 months old in this company and already start going to customer's place on my own.

I like my life here, one sad thing is my bf's work cannot be based Penang. Sigh... if only his dream job is available here...